As the snow continues falling I find myself more at peace with it today. Yesterday my inner pendulum had swung away from my recent admiration of snow’s beauty in the wind, to feeling trapped indoors behind daggers of ice. The icicle display of freeze-thaw evidence is harmless and really quite beautiful depending on the viewer’s perspective. [my other blog’s post]
Peace begins within.
Not being at peace with what IS is akin to trying to push the river or stop the dawn. Yet much of my life used to be filled with angst generated by my inability to accept what was happening in a particular moment. Take traffic for example.
Years ago I had an epiphany in traffic that improved my driving, and my life. It was during a frequent merge, up an incline with a curve to the right and a very long length of lane to accelerate to highway speed (110km/h). I was directly behind a car that was going 40km/h under the speed limit. Practically growling at their (or their vehicle’s) incompetence, I glanced frantically over my shoulder with hopes of passing. In seeing a line of traffic almost upon me led by a massive truck, I sat back and momentarily took my foot off the gas to allow space from the slow car ahead.
I observed, as if from a distance (my Higher Self), how my blood pressure had shot up just because the person in front couldn’t get up to speed to join the freeway. I saw how my wheel-clutching tension had materialized suddenly from what had been, moments earlier, a peaceful and loving morning at home. It was in that instant of really seeing myself that I let go and felt the tension melt away. All semblance of hardness left me, replaced with the softness of grace. I actually felt taller as a blanket of gentleness settled over me and I saw that I was resisting what Is. This is my moment, right here and right now, and just look at how lovely the sky is ahead. Those clouds are beautiful. There we go, that’s more like it! Feeling like my peaceful self again.
Peace rediscovered in an instant behind a slow-moving car that I had erroneously given away my power to. I had given an external happenstance the power over my emotions and how my day was unfolding. In a moment of grace as I like to call it, or the lovely multi-syllable word epiphany, I reclaimed my power by birthright. Free will. The power of choice and I choose peace. A radiant peace began emanating from my heart. Everywhere. At the driver of that slow car, and the truck that whizzed past. I gave thanks to the drivers behind me who hadn’t honked, but even if they had I was too busy relishing my happiness to have even noticed or cared.
That hard feeling of inflexibility doesn’t stand a chance when met with the encompassing power of grace that comes with the acceptance of What Is. Happiness blooms in my heart as I remember to be gentle and calm. No matter if I’m being detained, or they’re sold out of something I need, or it’s snowing when I want warm sunshine. No outer event need ruffle my inner pond of peace. Peace blossoms with letting go, and letting the moment just be. It Is and I Am. Thank You God For This Day.
May I remember to say this phrase of unconditional love and gratitude for this precise moment. May I overflow with peace and thankfulness that I am alive and breathing and here. May we all. Namaste. Gina
© 2014 Gina ~ Professions for Peace