Allowing for Grief

A wonderful post by my dear blogging friend, Eliza Waters, really brought up my unfinished grief over the loss of 3 of my 4 pets recently, all within a six month period. While a tribute post will be shared once I am able to not sob over their photos and even their names, this post is about allowing ourselves time to grieve. When a loss is suffered, no one can say how long it will take or when we’re ‘over it’. To feel tremendous love is to feel grief deeply. This is a part of life, and a component of healing is giving ourselves permission to feel sad. It’s a lesson I’m certainly learning these days. Even the recent season of joy and light was a rough one for me. Normally I put up the tree and my large ceramic Nativity scene as early as December 1st but this year the tree went up on the 20th and the large Nativity never came out of its box, having two smaller one-piece ones around my home subbing in for it. But these seemingly small events meant a lot to me, and showed me how sad my heart still is.

no longer at my side but always in my heartSince it is my own comment, I am trusting Eliza will be fine with my sharing of it here. This is what I wrote to her this morning:

“Eliza, this post made me cry and that’s perfectly alright! Thank you for helping me with my healing through my grief of losing Nikki in September. Sadly we lost Jade, our Abyssinian tabby in May and our gorgeous long-haired Siamese (Ebony) in November, so a very rough 6 months I’m still reeling from. I began to cry as you shared about Ruby, whose sweet face (and coloring!) looks so like my Nikki-girl, and the loneliness on walks… I am SO glad you found Wren (what a great name!) and I hope to be there someday soon, but my heart is still so broken from losing 3 of 4 four-legged children recently. Yes they age, and some battles cannot be won no matter how advanced veterinary medicine is. Anyways, sorry, long comment here! Really just want to say Thank You… so much. For sharing, for adopting a new ‘fur-kid’, and helping me heal a bit more. Love & Light, Gina”

On the bright side, our 17-year old feisty tabby girl ‘Katie’ who was adopted from the pound 15 years ago, is doing her best to help my family and me still get our ‘cat quota’ in. She mostly sticks close to me, but the other day, while on my lap – again – and my husband within ear shot, I told her that she needs to give ‘dad’ some love too, since he’s below ‘quota’. (Our Siamese ‘Ebony’ practically lived on his shoulder, especially in the last few of her 17 years). So that night as we settled in to watch a program together, what did she do but spend the hour in HIS lap! Whatta good girl! He needs his cat-pats too.

Time passes and the healing comes. Achingly slow at first. Then a morning walk without thinking of Nikki for a while (as Eliza shares as well), then a whole day passes without tearing up about how much quieter our house is. So while this morning’s unexpected crying burst reminded me of how the pain is still there, I know it is lessening. It isn’t constant, but rather in scattered moments. Someday, when we’re ready, my husband and I will be ready to begin visiting rescue shelters to find another 4-legged ‘fur-kid’ that Katie can teach the ropes to. Until then, she’s helping us feel loved (and bossed around a bit too!).

Image sources
2 square images at the top are from my Pinterest boards without sources being evident.
The incredible drawing of the crying eye is called ‘Don’t cry to night’ by Omar Gordillo Soto [source]
And the touching pawprint in the clouds is from Facebook/RainbowBridgepetloss [source]

What Can I Say

For months now I have been suffering from a grief-laden form of writer’s block. A sense of ‘what can I say’ has been blocking words from flowing through me. Instead, lately I find solace in images. If during my time away from my blog anyone has wondered where I was, I was on Tumblr and Pinterest. These are places where I have another ‘family’ of sorts, although nowhere near as close as here on WordPress because we share without words. We share with each other through images. Especially on my Tumblr site. Collecting photographs that portray a certain feeling of ‘life in the country’ has been my solace.

Pinterest and Tumblr are quite different, and I enjoy both for different reasons. My PIN boards are fun and freeform, whereas my Tumblr board is more sacred to me… a place where I am careful to only select images that portray what I FEEL.

My entire Tumblr site is about mood and feeling. I liken it to an online Dream Board, for it is what I dream of living, a place in the country with a few animals that are working companions, and not for eating. Tree fall and mushroom collecting from nearby forests, absolutely. Fishing, definitely. But meals are mostly from eggs, cheese, and freshly grown grains and vegetables. Therefore you will not find any images of pigs or cows, except the occasional milk cow and she will be long-lived and well loved, as would her offspring be. No veal or pork here. And my well-trained horses will be able to pull a sleigh, wagon or plow as easily as going for a ride through the woodland or countryside.

Dream Boards are a wonderful way to focus on that which we intend to create and accomplish. Tumblr does this for me regarding my dream of a life in the country as a writer, gardener, cook and dish washer, baker, fisher, knitter, artist, book collector, star gazer, fire maker, wood gatherer, tree planter, egg collector, sheep shearer, barn chore handler and livestock/bee keeper.

So if you ever dream of a less complicated life, and enjoy communing with trees and stroking the neck of a horse or a sheep, you just might enjoy a stroll about my place in the country. It’s a place where I spend a lot my internet time, collecting images that help me feel as if I’m already living my dream. Scroll down through the infinite scroll as is, or click on ‘Nostalgia’ to scroll through image snapshots of my wordless posts through the months past. I hope you enjoy! Be well. Namaste. Blessings, Gina

Make A Wish

Sending my warmest wishes for a wonderful 2015 to one and all. May all our hearts be joyous and bright and filled with all the hopes and dreams of a brand new year. May peace prevail. Namaste.


[All images are by others and can be viewed in my Tumblr collection ~ see sidebar or click here]

Put A Little Love In Your Heart

From the SCROOGED Movie Soundtrack, here is an excellent cover of Jackie DeShannon’s 1969 song, beautifully performed by Al Green and Annie Lennox.


Think of your fellow man
Lend him a helping hand
Put a little love in your heart
You see it’s getting late
Oh, please don’t hesitate
Put a little love in your heart

And the world will be a better place
And the world will be a better place
For you and me
You just wait and see

Another day goes by
And still the children cry
Put a little love in your heart
If you want the world to know
We won’t let hatred grow
Put a little love in your heart

And the world will be a better place
And the world will be a better place
For you and me
You just wait and see, wait and see

Take a good look around
And if you’re lookin’ down
Put a little love in your heart
And I hope when you decide
Kindness will be your guide
Put a little love in your heart

And the world will be a better place
And the world will be a better place
For you and me
You just wait and see
Put a little love in your heart
Each and every day
Put a little love in your heart
There’s got to be a better way
Put a little love in your heart
Don’t you think it’s time we start
Put a little love in your heart

The Christmas Candle read aloud

Here is a story that takes less than ten minutes to enjoy yet its message is timeless.

I’m sharing this read-aloud story with my deepest humility, knowing I am very new to this. Certainly I will get better at my recordings, but I read and reread through my old, lovingly worn edition of the book until this version felt acceptable.

Strong has been the pull from within me to share this story from my children’s youth. Its message is very important for us to understand, all year round but especially at this time of year.

Let us see others as if they are illuminated with the magical light of the Christmas candle, and we will see that we are all members of one family.

Let there be peace, and let it begin with me.

Warmest blessings of the season! Gina

The Christmas Candle book cover

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Each One of Them

“Every day I see Jesus Christ in all of His distressing disguises.”

~Mother Teresa


Jesus in disguise

Kindred Support

Be with those who “get” you. It’s important!

be with those RUMI

Choose your friends with caution,

Plan your future with purpose, and

Frame your life with faith.

~Thomas Merton